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21 January 2009 @ 09:30 am
It's the little things...  
It's no secret (or maybe it is) that I've been in a funk for the last few months, for most of the fall, actually. But just in the last week I've seen the light at the end of the tunnel and I feel happy for the first time in a long time. It isn't that I haven't had anything to be happy about, because I do: Great husband, great kids, great family, and a wonderful community of online friends that I hold dear.

Despite the medicine I'm currently taking making me BEYOND ill, I feel good. Energized. And it's been so long since I've felt that way that I don't know what to do with all the excess energy. I was online for a few minutes this morning and got sad at some of the things I read, but was able to feed all my boys breakfast, and that was good. Nolan had an MRI early this morning for some leg and back pain (He's OLD, y'all) but got to come home after for breakfast. We're having a dinner party tonight, so that's kind of fun; I went grocery shopping early this morning and the retired gentleman who took my bags to the car for me was the sweetest thing ever; he was kind and solicitous. He asked me how I was, and sounded like he actually cared about the answer! He loaded the sacks in the back of my car, and then opened my driver's side door for me. Nolan does that, as do the boys, but to have someone other than family act in such a chivalrous manner made me smile. And glow, a little.

I think that what I'm trying to say is that I'm choosing to be happy. I'm not letting the bad stuff weigh me down. I'm going to do what I do to the best of my ability, to love God and love others, and try not to worry and fret over the minutia of junk that comes up daily, and especially the things I have absolutely no control over.

*big love to the flist*
I hear:: More Than She Knows - The Spin Doctors
tracyj23: *cheer*tracyj23 on January 21st, 2009 03:55 pm (UTC)
That's an excellent way to view life.

Go forth and be happy!
maureen: wall o' guitarsmaureen on January 21st, 2009 08:16 pm (UTC)
So much of what life isn't what happens to us, but how we choose to look at what happens... I read that somewhere once. I think the next line said something like, "Circumstances and attitudes do color life, but you have been given the mind to choose what those colors will be." I was 19 years old or so and a boss gave me that typed up. I never forgot it. It's a really easy concept, but one that takes practice putting into place.

Carrie... That was for you but I did it in reply to Tracy's note because Tracy and I seem to have been talking about this very thing for like the last six months! So strange...

Also, for the record, I didn't know you were in an overall funk. I was aware of funky days and when people/life piss you off sometimes, but I didn't know it was this bad. Either you are good at putting on a happy face or I'm a crappy friend. Maybe a little of both. Anyway, please know you are loved and treasured and don't forget it's okay to be human.

Glad you had a bright spot this morning.

Edited at 2009-01-21 08:16 pm (UTC)
tracyj23tracyj23 on January 22nd, 2009 02:12 am (UTC)
Awesome. Thanks for the reminder, yet again. I've been needing it this week!
seegrimseegrim on January 21st, 2009 04:13 pm (UTC)
I'm very happy that you're feeling better, obviously. :)
Jandy the Gnome Whisperer: Loves and Hugsjandjsalmon on January 21st, 2009 05:30 pm (UTC)
I am SO glad you are choosing to be happy. I have to remind myself some days - but I've felt a lot better coming to that realization too.

And I think it's AWESOME that the gentleman opened the door for you. It's amazing what it will be that will just be a lightbulb for you, you know?

*hugs and loves*
nbaeker: dean  you're awesomenbaeker on January 21st, 2009 06:23 pm (UTC)
AWWWW, sweet little old men are my favourite.


that sounds funny. But I'm quite sure you know what I *mean* and will take it that way. *nods*

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. You're wonderful, imo.

Dean's opinion too. :D
WolfStar: confusedwolfstar07 on January 21st, 2009 09:40 pm (UTC)
Mm, I was kind of in a funk from late spring through early/mid-summer too. I don't really remember how or when, but at some point I did decide that I needed to choose to be happy because the way I was feeling just wasn't doing anything for me at all. I suppose having things to look forward to really helped, and I'm glad that you're feeling better about things.
dragonsangel68: Happy - Wootdragonsangel68 on January 21st, 2009 11:14 pm (UTC)
Go you! Great to hear you're feeling so positive :)
idreamofdraco: D/Gidreamofdraco on January 22nd, 2009 12:15 am (UTC)
I'm glad you are feeling better, or choosing to feel better! :D
dL: freedieloreley on January 22nd, 2009 09:34 am (UTC)
I love you, Carrie. *big hug* Isn't it nice when people do nice things for you unexpectedly? I smile when men get off the path for me instead of forcing me off.