This is less of a devotional and maybe sort of more of a testimony? You can decide. :)
So. I've been having a kind of rough week. In comparison to some people's problems, it's nothing, I know. But it's sort of rocked my little world, and I, the girl who rarely gets ruffled about anything, was anxious. And that's not good.
I've lived with this awful worry, having a huge concern for things that were beyond my control, being upset about things that had already happened. And so of course, I turn to the Lord. and I didn't hear much for a while, which, you know, had me more concerned. But then yesterday, I just started thanking him. Really appreciating him for all he's done in my life.
God is so good. I started thinking of my expectations of people and things, and how expecting things of people is not where to put my hope.
Psalm 62 (who doesn't love the Psalms?!) says:
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him. "
(I can't get what I need from PEOPLE. Not my friends, not my husband, not approval from people, not random folks online - My hope is from the LORD!)
"He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. "
(My expectation, and hope, lies with God and God alone. Verse 7 is where it really takes off:)
"My salvation and my honor depend on God [a] ; (God Most High is my salvation and my honor )
he is my mighty rock, my refuge. "
That word salvation? In other translations it says HOPE, and EXPECTATION.
When we pin our hopes and expectations on people, aren't we inevitably met with disappointment, which leads to anger and bitterness?
but Psalm 62 says this:
he delivered me from all my fears. "
All I have to say to that, is WOOT, y'all.
In closing, This spoke volumes as well: It's Phillipians 4:4-8
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. "
Which, translated into Carriespeak, says, 'Give it to him and you won't feel that awful gut-churning guilt or shame or condemnation; ask him to take it away, and he'll make it better. Hallefreakinglujah.'
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."
Carriespeak: 'Focus on the good. The kind. The wonderful people. Be around the ones who lift you up. Surround yourself with things that are positive, and let the other things drift away.' You know, that last verse? I have that on a sign (a pretty big one) in my office, and I look at it EVERY DAY. But I really didn't SEE it. But I'm redoubling my efforts to look at the happy side of life, to put my focus on GOD, and not to focus on the things that make me feel bad.
So, dear ones, that's where I am. I pray that you'll all focus on the good in your lives, and praise Him for your blessings! Happy Thursday!