Carrie Leigh (carrie_leigh) wrote,
Carrie Leigh

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I'm feeling particularly grateful today. 

Things are going well!  I'm done with my classes for the summer, and the boys are essentially done with school.  Their last day is tomorrow.  Next Wednesday we'll be going to Arlington to visit Mom and Tom.  While we're there, Nolan and I will celebrate our 10 year anniversary on the 6th, and it'll be fun to be in Dallas and go dancing and to dinner somewhere different than here.  While we're in Arlington, the boys are going to a golf clinic, which means I have to make good on my promise that I would learn how to play golf this summer.  That promise was a lot easier to make when it was 20 degrees outside.  However, I've had clubs for 10 years.  I should learn.  And that way it'll be something we can do as a family, besides going to the movies, where we sit on our collective butts, eating popcorn. And goobers.  P.S.  New Indiana Jones movie?  WTC, Speilberg!  Didn't care for it.

So the boys and I will be there for a week. Nolan will fly back home on Sunday.  I need to call my girlfriends that live in Dallas so we can meet up!  I'm so bad about that.  I get so involved in my own life that I forget to do that when we're there.  I haven't seen Deadra and her kids in three years?  And My cousin Beth?  Four years.  Cherie?  Our 10 year HS reunion, I think.  Yikes.

One last thing.  I know I've mentioned the community 2ormore here, but today I realized that you have to actually friend the community to see the posts.  So I've decided that I'll stick my posts behind a cut on my journal, so that everyone can see.  Because I have friends and family that might want to read, and they are SERIOUSLY uncool and don't have livejournal accounts.  (Just kidding! )

How many times as women do we want something that someone else has?  For me, I very rarely voice it, but I struggle with envy.  I'm not ususally envious of STUFF, like houses or cars, or tangible things...  My envy is different.  I have envy of other people's friendships, envy of other's personalities, envy of other people's spiritual walks, and envy for other people's extended families.  It's a struggle, because it is all deep inside.  Christian women do not voice these things!  Perish the thought!  We know it's wrong.  And we SO like to appear unflawed to those around us, don't we?

The thing is, over the years, I've learned that the very people I envy?  Their lives are imperfect, too.  The couple I was sure had the perfect marriage?  They struggle with the same things (or worse) that Nolan and I do. God's word says in James 4:12 - There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?  Nobody, that's who.  I know NOTHING.

And the people who I were certain were just bad seeds?  That said hurtful things and did awful things to me?  I have no idea why they would do such things.  They might have a perfectly good reason.  Paul says in his first letter to the Corinthians, verse 4:5 - Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God.  My God will take care of it all so that I don't have to be judge, jury and executioner.  Praise Him!  'Cause I don't have time, y'all.

And you know what?  When I get to heaven, I'm going to be accountable for A LOT of stuff.  (The mind reels - seriously.)  I'm gonna be far to busy being accountable for my own stuff to have time to point my finger at anyone else and say, "But look what they did!  That's not as bad as what I did, God!"  Let me let you in on a secret I've learned over the last few years.  Sin is sin.  In God's eyes, one sin is not worse than another sin.  That's a weighty thought.  When you tell a little white lie, it's the same to God as the man who cheats on his wife.  Romans 14:10 - You, then, why do you judge your brother? Or why do you look down on your brother? For we will all stand before God's judgment seat.  So I think I'll worry about my own stuff, thank you very much.  :)

Matthew 7:1 Do not judge, or you too will be judged.  Eeep.  Again.  Look at what I'm doing, not at the people around me.  This applies to EVERY walk of life, not just Christianity. (I get Christian tunnel vision, sometimes) The everyday things, the everyday people.  Love them, don't judge them.

Proverbs 14:30 A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones.  ROTS THE BONES!  Double ick!  Thank you for the vivid imagery, Solomon!  Wow.  What a picture of what envy will do to you!  it'll rot you from the inside out!  I don't want to be rotted inside!  I want to bear fruit and be happy.  Got it God.  Check.  No envy.

James 3:16 For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.  Now if there's one thing I can't abide, it's disorder.  That's how this one got me (Not the evil...ironic)  But I think what this is saying is that when you envy, you open up the door for Satan to hit you and tempt you with other things.  Personally, I do not enjoy leaving Satan an open door.  Nothing good has ever come of that.

So how do we overcome envy? 2 Corinthians 2:5 has an answer.   We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.  Take captive every thought as it comes, and MAKE it obedient to Christ.  I don't know about you girls, but I have issues with that.  I have a tough time making myself do anything.  So there's a lot of prayer involved, asking God for his help to make my thoughts obedient.  But he is good and always comes through!

You girls have a happy Thursday.  Love to you all!


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